Well, I'm headed off to Hartford, CN for the weekend for the National Student Conference on Hunger and Homelessness. I'm really excited, and I think it is going to be a great weekend. Plus I finally get to go somewhere away from here! Actually, I don't mind being here all the time, but it will be nice to get away, even if i do freeze. Anyhow, be sure to watch OSU suffer this weekend during bedlam since I won't be able to! =) Right now, I'm off to bed for a couple hours seeing as how it's now 2am...

I love how when you go to google and type in Sunni Mercer, you get tons info and articles about my mom.... however... if you go and type in Danica... you find stuff like THIS!, or THIS! (as well as tons of foreign stuff).

Need some amusement?? Here ya go...

Perhaps I should explain first... So last night I'm sitting around playing guitar and wasting my time when suddenly, this stranger IM's me.... and this is what follows... Ive added commentary in parentheses... It's kinda long... so sorry about that!

RGWCMW: hi, do we know each other?
(I doubt it)
Mercerd84: possibly
Mercerd84: who are you?
RGWCMW: my name is tyler
RGWCMW: im from L.A.
(oh my gosh.. this guy has IMed me before!! hahaha)
RGWCMW: any of that ring a bell
Mercerd84: hmmm not really... I used to go to school out in San Diego though
RGWCMW: where at?
Mercerd84: Point Loma.. it's a small private school out there, not to far from SDSU
RGWCMW: cool, well hmmm
RGWCMW: you are on my buddy list
RGWCMW: odd
(you have no idea! esp. since I lied about all my info last time...)
RGWCMW: but cool at the same time, whats your name?
(oh boy, here we go)
Mercerd84: Danica
Mercerd84: (Day-nick-uh)
RGWCMW: cool name
Mercerd84: thanks
RGWCMW: ive never met a danica
RGWCMW: until now
(if I had a $ everytime I heard that, i'd be worth a lotta $$)
Mercerd84: i have to admit that I have met a few tyler's
RGWCMW: oh how sad
RGWCMW: like me the best though right?
(yeah, right...)
Mercerd84: oh yes, of course
RGWCMW: so where do you live danica?
(to tell, or not to tell??)
Mercerd84: I live in Nashville currently
RGWCMW: cool, do you like it there?
Mercerd84: yeah I do. i thought it was going to be super country or something. but it's actually not.
RGWCMW: thats awesome
RGWCMW: so my curiousity is getting the best of me now...
(if he asks what I look like, I'm going to cry.. or laugh... 1 of the 2)
RGWCMW: girl with cool name, lives in pretty cool place...
(oh no... I know what's comming.. he SO pulled this stuff last time!)
RGWCMW: i wanna know what you look like? is that uncalled for?
(hahaha. Yes, yes it is... wow this guy is strange)
Mercerd84: haha.. well... i'm about 5'8 and I have brownish reddish hair
RGWCMW signed off at 8:59:20 PM.
(it worked! I scared him away!! Geez, only I can repel strangers with such charm and grace.)
RGWCMW signed on at 9:01:53 PM.
(dangit)
RGWCMW: sorry
RGWCMW: got booted
RGWCMW: can you send your last im please
(oh good grief)
Mercerd84: happens to me all the time
RGWCMW: haha
RGWCMW: yeah AOL sucks
Mercerd84: haha.. well... i'm about 5'8 and I have brownish reddish hair
RGWCMW: lovely
RGWCMW: any more info you care to share?
(you wish)
RGWCMW: p.s. i love taller women, Im quite tall myself
(that's nice)
RGWCMW: so do you have any pics?
(hahaha where is a scary pic when you need one!)
Mercerd84: i don't have any pics on my comp, and I don't have a scanner here yet
RGWCMW: oh how sad
(yeah, for you...)
Mercerd84: yeah, i am behind the times
RGWCMW: haha
RGWCMW: its cool
RGWCMW: so what do you do for fun danica
(nothing that you would be interested in, I'm sure)
Mercerd84: well, let's see. here in Nashville I waste all of my money going to see shows and stuff, since live music is "the thing" here I guess you might say
Mercerd84: and school keeps me busy, but i manage to escape every now and then
RGWCMW: nice
(haha that's right i'm a nerd!! hahaha)
RGWCMW: are you into partying or hanging out with friends? or?
(or??? gee whiz)
Mercerd84: hmm it depends. I don't really consider myself the "typical" party type..
I'm more of a close group of friends sort of girl. Lots of "acquaintances", but about 5 really good friends
RGWCMW: cool
RGWCMW: well crazy having you on my buddy list
(isn't that the truth!)


What I want to know is... how do these guys find me?!?! It's actually really funny becuase he did IM me last year out of the blue and I had (and still have) no clue who he is except that he lives in LA, and I was afraid he'd want to meet or something so I lied about everything... so in all actuality, we have talked before... he just doesn't know that we are the same person. To add to the humor of the situation, I told Amy about him and she IMed him, and he told her how he was a model and how he would fly her out to one of his shoots sometime, and she could help with the changing! haha weirdo! And THEN he started asking for her measurements and crap like that. But.. the best part is the "pictures" that he sent. LOL wow... i'm gonna try and put them up on here later. They are hilarious!! They are modeling photos of "him." Yeah right.. what model goes around trying to pick up random internet girls who live all over the country?? (and has been doing it for a while now considering we had the same conversation last year!) lol

All I can say is... Thank goodness for AIMs blocking controls. (not that hell be "speaking" to me anytime soon.. I think I'm a bit boring for him... hahaha)

And Tyler... if you happen to be reading this.... Sorry, but you deserve it.

Have you ever wanted to be something other than what you are? I mean, I guess everyone does. But have you every wanted to be something less than what you are, just for the sake of having fun and making friends? Sounds a bit "high schoolish" I know... but more and more I learn that somethings never change, even if it is pieces of yourself. I guess, to put it bluntly... sometimes I just get tired of having to do the right thing all of the time. This may come as a shock to those of you who know me as the friend who always worries about your behavior... but I'm sure that others of you know what I'm talking about.

This morning I read the book of Malachi. Although I generally spend the majority of my time in the New Testament, there are lots of great things that I love about the Old Testament as well...and Malachi is one of them. Not only is it short (you can read the entire book in about 10-15 minutes) but I happen to find it relative to my life. Malachi is about God confronting a nation that has been going through the motions. By Malachi's time Israel's hope had faded. In fact, life seemed to have passed the Israelites by. They could not see that God loved them, and they felt that serving God brought no reward. So the book starts off with God reminding His people of His love for them, He then moves on to address their lukewarm actions and careless attitude. God tells the people that their actions are meant to symbolize an inner attitude and that they must practice their faith seriously. He even goes so far as to say.. "Test me in this, and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that you will not have enough room for it." (3:10) Wow.

So back to my life... After reading this, I got to thinking about my life and ways that I may be going through the motions, or not taking my faith seriously and all that. And I thought about how I have been wishing that my life were different and that I were more "wild" or whatever; and it hit me, that these past few days I have not been taking my faith seriously... on the other hand I have been treating my faith as if it were a burden... which, granted, yes it sometimes is.. but that's not necessarily a bad thing! After all faith grows through difficulty. But this morning I found myself in the same place that the Israelites did when Malachi brought the word to them: I felt as though life was passing me by (becuase I continually say no to so many "cool" things that I know aren't right)... and I felt that serving God brought no reward, but rather it caused me to miss out on stuff down here on earth. And then of course I came to my senses. Reading through Malachi and hearing God remind Israel of His love for them, as well as warn them of the consequences of a careless attitude, and then He ends it all off by saying, "Hey. There is a reward. Don't believe me? Try me and see what happens." Needless to say... Malachi was what I needed this morning.

Until next time... Oh.. and by the way, I got a new comment serivce since the old one broke!


"Temptation becomes a stepping stone rather than a stumbling block when you realize that it's just as much an opportunity to do the right thing, as the wrong thing."

Well there goes the whole post that I just typed. BAH!

This is for all of you guys out there who think they want to know what us gals are "really thinking"...

Mercerd84: oh i got asked out
Mercerd84: sorta
Autumnjon: interesting
Autumnjon: by whom?
Mercerd84: i don't know
Autumnjon: what?
Mercerd84: i don't know his name
Mercerd84: it's this guy that i see all the time in the bruin hills clubhouse
Mercerd84: i think he works there
Autumnjon: what did he say?
Mercerd84: could be an ra or something
Mercerd84: well we've talked before, and then today he was like "can I take you out for coffe?"
Autumnjon: did you say yes?
Autumnjon: wait...is he cute?
Mercerd84: haha which one do you want me to answer first?
Mercerd84: i guess you could say that I said yes
Mercerd84: i don't remember what I said, I just managed to avoid doing it today or tomorrow.
Autumnjon: more importantly...is he cute?
Mercerd84: he's cute I guess, I mean he isn't ugly or anything. Wow I sound really bad!
Mercerd84: let's just say that there is no attraction there
Mercerd84: for me
Autumnjon: he could be a friend
Mercerd84: yes, this is what I was thinking
Mercerd84: anyhow somehow I ended up giving him my number, so he's supposed to call
Mercerd84: i'm bad at this stuff
Autumnjon: how are you bad at it?
Mercerd84: i'm out of practice or something
Mercerd84: i'm good at avoiding! Probably too good.
Autumnjon: sounds like a success to me....except he's probably going to think it is a date, and you aren't...bad
Mercerd84: sigh. how do these things always happen to me
Autumnjon: at least he's straight
Mercerd84: i'm sure God finds this all very humorous
Autumnjon: yeah, he's been laughing at me for years
Mercerd84: lol, yes I suppose that is a good thing, but it would make things a heck of a lot easier on me if he were gay
Mercerd84: considering that I don't like him like that
Mercerd84: and hello, did I mention that I don't know his name!
Mercerd84: that complicates things, just a little!
Autumnjon: you can just mention a boy you're interested in over coffee...or when he calls say "actually i have a date tonight, maybe tomorrow"
Mercerd84: too bad that would be lying!
Autumnjon: and he'll say his name when he calls...he'll say "hi Danica...this is____"
Mercerd84: and yeah, I can just see myself bringing up other guys as we sit there drinking coffee... I could never do that.
Mercerd84: wow, I'm making this a much bigger deal than it really is. it's just coffee with a nameless guy, and you're right.. by that time, I'll know his name.

My life is rated PG-13.
What is your life rated?

I'm lonely today. There are days when life is everything that you want it to be, and there are days where the only thing that makes you happy is the thought of leaving this world. Perhaps it is good that these days are few and far between. The majority of life is made up of what's in the middle... the days in between, you might say. I got to thinking about that a lot today. So much of life is spent waiting. You wait to drive, to graduate, to go to college, to fall "in love", to graduate from college, to get married, to have kids...etc. We set so much importance on a few distinct milestones in life that it seems as though everything else is boring and mundane. Today has definitely felt that way. as many of you know, I am not a patient person. I don't like waiting and I don't like feeling as though I have no control over situations in my life. But luckily for all of us I am willing to deal with the fact that that's just how life goes. And quite honestly we're never really in control of anything, we just like to think we are. Me especially.
I missed Point Loma today. All of my old friends, and the ocean. There's something about the ocean. Being able to sit on the cliffs and look out into it just seems to put everything back into perspective. It makes you feel small, but it reminds you that there is a whole other world out there, and that anything is possible. I miss the sunsets, I haven't seen a sunset since I was in Germany. I miss sitting on the roof of Nease at night. I miss Jordan and the other PLNU YIM kids. I miss spending finals week tearing pages out of my spanish book and giving them away to friends. =) I miss all the fun we had.
But through all of this I know that one day I will miss this place too. One day I will look back and smile about all the stupid stuff: the bad grades, the failed tests, the fact that I single-handidly managed to shut down the entire student body network. One day I will look back and wish that these days coud've lasted forever. Today is not that day.... but I am keeping that day in the back of my mind just to remind me to stop and enjoy life for what it's worth... even if it's not worth much at the moment. Sounds cheesy I know. But what can I say? It helps me keep things in perspective, and since I no longer have the ocean... I gotta use something.

It's stuck in last October.. but you might as well give it a shot...

So you know how back in the 7th grade you used to get all of those annoying surveys about yourself with about 100 questions on them... Only they weren't annoying until you were in about 8th grade? Well I got one of these the other day... only it had a nice twist to it... it had 30 questions and the object is to pick 15 of them, answer them and send only the answers to your friends, whose job it is to figure out what the questions are, based on your answers. Sound confusing?? Well, it is. But in my pre-fall break boredom, I actually decided to give this a try.... So for your enjoyment, these were my answers. Feel free to e-mail me with what you think the questions are. They're not that tricky, but it is pretty funny to see what people come up with.

1. ambiguous
2. failure/success
3. The ability to slack off and get away with it.
4. Skipping half of it!
5. Transferring
6. I hate being wrong.
7. People.
8. Rory Gilmore
9. Anne Shirley
10. Change the world, Sing, and love
11. Surrendering
12. Josh Shipp, the motivational speaker
13. Coldplay
14. Youth In Mission
15. Hello, Dolly!

Wow, I'm such a dork! But at least I admit it!

OU rocks. I smell national title number 8. New Orleans here we come... YAY! And yes.. I know that Green Bay lost... but it was in overtime to the Chiefs, who are undefeated thus far. We put up a good fight, and I'm proud nonetheless (<- is that really supposed to be 1 word??)

If you had a soundtrack for your life, what would be on it? Isn't that a great question? Tough one, I know. Have you ever put in an old CD or heard a song on the radio that you haven't heard in a while, and then all of a sudden... as if it were magic, you're transported back in time to when those songs were an integral part of your day.. and for a few moments you can remember exactly what you were going through at the time. Music is amazing like that. I know that there is some psychological jargon that defines this... but seriously... I just think that it's cool. Scents can do it too (think old bf/gf perfume/cologne) but the music thing is definitely more powerful. Which is why I tell people to always listen to good music... cause one day, years from now, you'll hear some old song that will take you back in time. And even if things were bad, at least you'll have some good music to fall back on. Or maybe I'm just crazy, and it's just me.

Now to boring details....
It's Sunday night and I'm taking a break from studying. Ok... so maybe I wasn't really studying hard or anything.. but I am locked in my room and I am working through notes and study guides.... so that's a start right??

Just so you know, life did get better after Wednesday's griping session. Turns out that all of my credits ended up transferring (although some of them were for weird classes). Yes I still have 2 tests, a midterm and a performance this week... but that's life for ya, so I can't really gripe about that too much. I think things cleared up the most once our concert was over with. Don't get me wrong, it went really well. Granted.. women's choir sucked big time, but I really wasn't all that suprised. Everything else went well, even though it was a 2 1/2 hour ordeal.

Overall... good weekend. I studied, cleaned, cooked (cookies, YUM!),did laundry, watched OU slaughter Texas, went to Pop/Rock showcase, and then off to Carrabas for dinner for Lindsey's birthday.

YAY for Fall Break this week!!!!!!!!!!

"I'm just a curbside prophet with my hand in me pocket and I'm waitin' for my rocket to come......"

Warning... extreme griping session will proceed this announcement... don't say i didn't warn you.....


Wow, ok so today has already been "one of those days" and it's only noon. This does not give me hope for the rest of the day. I guess I would say that it can't get any worse... but we all know that saying that pretty much garuntees that things are gonna get bad. So where to start... let's see.. well i realized that I have a test tomorrow that I haven't studied for yet and I still don't know what it's over. I also found out today that (much to my dismay) we have 2 oratorio rehearsals today... 1 from 3-5 and another from 7-9:30 ugh that's just not cool... add my my 1 o clock choir class to that and you've got 5 1/2 hours of choir in one day. For the love of all that is holy! I needed to go fill out job apps and all that great stuff... but noooo! We have 4 hours of rehearsal tomorrow too... I just have to make it to saturday... i just have to make it to saturday... i just have to make it to saturday.
Anyhow, so we also had this big freshman/transfer meeting this morning with the music department regaurding our transcripts and grades and advising and all of that.... WELL.... it turns out that the people on the hill (aka the administration people) seemed to have lost several transfer transcripts.... and guess whose is one of them. Yeah. Good guess. So I still have no idea what's going to transfer (but it had better well be everything!) And on top of all of this they started talking to us about grades... which I have a feeling that a couple of mine are abysmal at the moment so I'm really starting to stress out because I have a New Testament test on Monday and a Music History mid-term on Tuesday and I HAVE to get A's on them. I HAVE too. Now, I know what you're thinking... "She always says that! This is the girl that considers a C to be the end of the world... unless it's in spanish..." And yes this is very true... but this time I'm serious.... I HAVE to get A's on these tests. I just HAVE too. And to top it all off, I totally forgot that I have to write a letter to my dean regaurding the Hunger and Homelessness convention in Hartford at the end of the month. Since I'm on the board now, I get to go to the convention, and we traditionally pay for it by requesting support from our deans, and I have to have my draft turned in by tomorrow. Oh... and Thanks Eve.
In short... I'm stressed out! I need caffeine! And I need a break and I am SOOOO glad that fall break is only 1 week from tomorrow... but at the same time, I know that I'm going to have to get a job and be working then... and that stinks. I miss you guys a lot. I could've gone home for fall break but then I realized that I'm scheduled to sing in my seminar on wed at 2... and at the same time I really don't want to drive for 11 hours by myself until I absolutely have to... and then there is the whole parents thing... So I think I can manage until Thanksgiving. I really wish I could visit everyone in San Diego. Maybe over spring break.. we'll see.
Whew... ok now that I got that out of my system I feel.... well... the same actually. but maybe someone can sympathize with me at the moment.... Speaking of which... Blake.. I'm so glad we talked last night. You have no idea how hard it is to find straight guys who give good advice =) (no offense to any of my guy friends... chances are that pretty much everyone who reads this gives good advice) I hope things work out with you and stephanie.


Stress!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHH!!! I had this huge thing typed out and then Blogger screwed up!!!!!!!!!! Baahhh!! Ok let me try this again...

So earlier today I decided to waste some time by reading through my archives. I have to admit that it was pretty interesting to see how much I have changed... or in some ways... haven't changed. It was also a good reminder for me on how life can sometimes take you by surprise. For example... do you guys remember David and CMC and Sound of Music and me wanting to change my major about 30,000 times?? I can't even imagine how different (and weird) my life would be if any of those things had worked out the way I wanted them to! Anyhow... so I read through over a year of my life today and I came to the conclusion that September, October, February and May are my favorite journal entry months. September and October are just cool, February is full of angst, so that's always exciting. And May is short and bittersweet.

Speaking of weird days (were we?).. I have been so moody today! Seriously, I hope I haven't yelled at any random people. (although I don't think I did) Choir was literally "the class from you know where" today. I forgot that it's a concert week, and since it is, suddenly all of the choir directors have turned into offspring of Satan. Sheesh, usually it's just Scruggs. Anyways.. piano went surprisingly well considering I didn't really practice this week. I was all stressed out, and then when the lesson was over, my prof was all complimentary and everything. So then I felt really guity because I got away with slacking off. I suppose that in any other class I wouldn't mind so much (in fact I'd probably be really happy) but in my private lessons I really want to utilize any and all potential available to me. Gosh I was lazy this week!! Although I will take a moment to say that Yes! I did finish my music history paper yesterday. 2 whole days early... this could be a record for me. And let me tell you... this paper is pretty dang good considering I was in complete agony trying to think of things to say for 3 pages (which really isn't that long... but when you don't know what you're talking about, 3 pages seems impossible)

Well right now I'm chillin to Gavin DeGraw. He's actually in concert opening for maroon 5 this weekend, but it's all sold out. Which is ok since I'll be at the Pop Rock Showcase that night anyway.

Well, before I digress any further (although, i don't think I could call it "digressing" since this whole post really has no central point.. in fact... i don't think that ANY of my posts have a central point... but oh well...) I will say farewell!! Have a great week.


yeah yeah yeah....

20 questions....

Why is staring considered to be rude? And how come little kids have no qualms with staring at people for long periods of time? Why does money suck? Why are people afraid of silence? What makes a person regret something? Is it because things didn't turn out the way they planned them to, or because things turned out according to plan? What makes something or someone funny? Whatever happened to the Corn Pops guy? What is this... a center for ants? Why is Dr. Pepper so good? Can you be mellow one minute and hyper the next without being bi-polar? Why is it that time is the only thing that can mend most wounds, but it can't make you forget them? How do moms know everything? If everyone in the world was bald except for 1,000 who had hair, would those 1,000 be considered weird and disgusting? Why do people generally crave junkfood like chocolate and chips rather than eggs or lima beans? If drinking milk were illegal to those under the age of 18, would more people under the age of 18 drink it? What in the world motivated me to do this? How come you can cry when you are happy, sad, or angry and you can yell when you are happy or sad or angry, but generally no one laughs when they're angry or sad? Why can't the game be called 19 questions? If happiness is really relative, then how come so many people care about what other people think?


"Beauty can do that; it scares you off, makes you keep your distance. It isn't like in the movies where the camera makes beauty seem like something that invites you in. In the real world, beauty is like a fence to keep you out, to back you off. And the most beautiful thing in the world today is mystery. For it is mystery that drives us, even when we do not know what it is that we crave."

Oh yeah, and for those of you who've been wondering... Guster rocked! if you ever get the chance to see them, ou should go. They put on a great show.


"It's all happening!"

Julie. I know how you feel. Only my problem now is that I know what I want, but don't know how to get it. And I don't know which is worse. But for now, here's my advice... (for what it's worth...) I'll start with a story... last year when I was learning to surf I didn't like it so much because although it seems easy and fun, it's actually a lot of work. So after paddling around chasing the waves for 2 hours I was getting pretty sick of things. And to make matters worse whenever a wave would come it was either too small or I'd chicken out and not risk it. Luckily my instructor was really helpful and by the end of my first time out I managed to at least get up onto my knees. Unfortunately I was really excited that I hesitated before i tried to stand up and then I fell off... but alas, I digress.

Anyhow, that day I learned several key things about surfing. 1. Initially, you have to go out to the waves, but once you get to the break point, you just have to be patient and wait for the perfect wave to come to you. 2. When that wave comes, if you hesitate at all, then you'll miss it. Now I'd like to take a moment to state the fact that I never in my entire life thought that i would EVER make an analogy between surfing and real life... but I've found that these same 2 rules really do apply to everyday things in life. Especially in your circumstance. For example, take a moment to ask yourself.... "If I could be anything I wanted to be, what would I choose?" and then ask yourself, "Is OSU going to get me there? Is this where the waves break? Or am I way off course?" Maybe you have several answers to question #1, and that's fine. Geez, look at me! I want to do everything! Anyhow, if OSU is going to get you where you want to go, then that leaves you stuck waiting for that perfect wave. You can only force things to happen for so long, and I wouldn't recommend doing that. You can spend years chasing after "waves" but ultimately, you can't "create" the perfect one, you can only follow the steps and then wait. So much of life is spent waiting, and it sucks. And finally, when the opportunity comes, you either take it or you don't. If you wait, it's gone. Don't give yourself the excuse to regret things later. And which do you think you would regret more.... Taking the chance and things not working out as you'd planned... or, Not taking the chance at all? Remember showchoir freshman year. Ugh I think that has to go down as one of the worst experiences of my life (right under the time when Jody threw up on the table at Zio's on our date....) Anyhow, I hated that class all year. I had wanted to get in so bad and then when I did it was awful. You remember. Well I can tell you that despite how awful it was, I don't regret doing it. I probably wouldn't do it again, but I definitely learned from the expereince, and I never would have if I had chosen not to go through with auditioning and all that.

You say that you don't know what you want, but then you follow this with a paragraph full of things that you wish for yourself. You say that you wish you "could get out of this place." The only thing stopping yourself is... well.. yourself. I know for a fact that you are smart enough to go and do anything that you want to do. Does that scare you or something? Too many choices? Have you prayed about this? And I mean, really prayed about this? You are an excellent communicator and I think that you want to be sociable, but not in the way that everyone else is sociable. Know what I mean? OH, and you are creative. I know you don't believe me, but trust me.. you are.

And finally, you say that you wish you didn't want others approval. =) Don't we all? Honestly though, I think that everyone on the planet wants approval to some degree. Some more than others, but the fact of the matter is that people may say that they don't care about what other people think, but let's face it, we all care a little. That said, I'll say this... I care about what people think, but not enough to change the things that I do, or who I am or anything like that. I wasted way too much time trying to force myself to be like other people, and it made me miserable. Truth be told that it wasn't until I broke up with you know who that I decided that "normal" is relative. If you want to sit and chill in your room while you read, then do it. Just don't allow yourself to feel guilty. It's hard, but just don't do it.

Jules, you are probably the nicest person that I have ever met in my life, and I think that's part of the problem. Not that you should be "meaner" or anything like that, but you definitely don't need to beat yourself up so much. Doing what you want to do doesn't make you selfish. Not in this situation. And choosing not to be sociable does not make you unsociable. Good grief, from the sounds of it you're running yourself ragged as it is. Take some time out for yourself. Introvert does not = boring. It just means that you are energized by time alone, rather than being energized by people.

You deserve to be the person that you want to be, and to have all your dreams come true. You definitely work hard enough. And one last piece of advice... the more often you take risks or try new things... the easier it gets.

Now go buy the new Dashboard or John M. it'll make you happy.

By the way, Vandy would be a good pre-med/med school =)


the book...

I watched TV for 3 consecutive hours tonight while eating Ice cram, oatmeal, and spaghetti with meat sauce. hmmm. Granted I did waste 5 hours in class, 2 hours at the gym, and 2 hours in the practice rooms today, so I guess you could say that I paid my dues. As many of you already know, I could've used a "Mentos" last night. To begin with I was fighting a huge dr. Pepper hangover and to make matters worse I finally had to reap the consequences of my amazing procrastination skills. So, I cleaned things up, balanced my checkbook, spread some goodwill.... etc. The usual. I also broke a string on my guitar. And I managed to achieve all of this by 1:30. Now that's talent. Now all I need to find is someone who can help me change my guitar strings....
I'm looking into booking a session in the studio sometime before the end of the semester, and I'm hoping that Josh will drag his Longhorn booty up here to help me do it. Now wouldn't that be interesting? And while we are on the subject of you.... are you bringing anyone home for Thanksgiving?? =) Just thought that I'd ask....
Jules, I'm serious about NYC. Let's do it. I'm sure the parents won't be too thrilled with the idea, but they already let me live in Europe for the summer, so I really don't see any valid arguments there. By the way, did I tell you that Jordan e-mailed me this week? Yeah. Call me. Oh and did I mention that foster kids have entered into the "cat lady" plan?? haha. yeah, call me.
Langley, are you behaving? How is Joel? I miss you guys. I'll be sending letters soon. In the meantime, don't do anything that I wouldn't do, and that's a lot!!
Luke, cousin, where have you been? I haven't "seen" you on here in forever! Did you pass? How's the story coming? How's the NCMO level holding out?=) And when can you come down? You always have a place on our couch!

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